I didn’t mention in my last blog (Keep Pushing! Keep Digging! | Sincerity (devotionsonline.blog) that I wanted to increase my activity when exercising. So I logged many exercise minutes to ensure I was burning calories to lose weight. So here it is, a new week, and it’s time to start planning the week. I continue to use the cycle and the elliptical machine. And I continue to eat heavy at the beginning of the week, like today, Monday, and Tuesday, and on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday is the days I eat very light. Salads, cottage cheese, grapes, and things like that keep calories down and continue to burn them simultaneously. I don’t use lettuce on my salad; I use spinach, the big leafy greens for fiber so I can feel full longer. Here are the results of my workouts this week.
October 11, 1,615 calories and did 79 minutes of exercise.
October 12, 1,647 calories and did 76 minutes of exercise.
October 13, 1,590 calories and did 76 minutes of exercise.
October 14, 1,682 calories and did 79 minutes of exercise.
October 15, 2,079 calories and did 100 minutes of exercise.
October 16, 1,726 calories and did 80 minutes of exercise.
October 17, 1,010 calories and did 37 minutes of exercise.
I can honestly say that this week’s production really paid off. But trust me when I say this; there are consequences behind your actions. Good or bad. Sunday, October 17, is weigh-in day. I have to say I am impressed. I dropped 5 pounds; I’m finally under the 299 threshold. I’m at 294. The weight keeps coming down. It is not the time to stop; it is a time to keep pushing and digging. I must continue to be active and find what I can do to keep myself motivated. It’s a never-ending process. This is good. What are you doing to stay motivated?
Week of October 17 – October 24
I am happy because I finally got under the 299 threshold I’ve been sitting on; I’m more dedicated to losing weight and keeping fit. But, it’s a new week, and it is time to start planning it. Failure to plan is planning to fail. So, put the work into the plan. My plan is; that if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it. I will use the elliptical and cycle machine for my workouts, strictly cardio (spoiler alert; I will regret that later.) So, I hit the gym bright and early and got to work. Here are my results for the week.
October 18, 1,461 calories and did 75 minutes of exercise.
October 19, 2,453 calories and did 126 minutes of exercise.
October 20, 1,906 calories and did 79 minutes of exercise.
October 21, 1,953 calories and did 86 minutes of exercise.
October 22, 2,224 calories and did 125 minutes of exercise.
October 23, 1,774 calories and did 81 minutes of exercise.
October 24, 1,063 calories and did 41 minutes of exercise.
So I weighed myself as it was October 24. I’m confused. I stayed at 294. What is going on? This issue has to be investigated. I talked it over with my mother, a former fitness trainer, to help dissect this issue. We both came up with something that it could be. Today, I felt bloated, and I have no idea why I felt bloated. That was part of the problem.
Meanwhile, during the week, I drank a lot of Powerade. I believe it was the Powerade. My mother thought it was the tea I had been drinking. Then we both came up with a third option that could be an issue. That is the cottage cheese. It was not the low-fat kind of cottage cheese. After examining what I’ve eaten and been drinking over the week, we devised a plan to see if it worked. Find out in the next blog what the plan is and see if I actually lost weight.
It’s been so long since I did a health update. Unfortunately, I’m so far behind that catching up will take tremendous discipline. So, where did I last stop at? I always stayed at 300lbs. The struggle is real. You can read that blog here: Shift Your Mindset | Sincerity (devotionsonline.blog). Before I dive in, I have to take a minute to apologize. I haven’t lived up to the standard of keeping up with the personal health side of my life. When I started the website and writing blogs, I intended to share inspirational, spiritual writings. However, I discovered that I’m losing weight, and I thought I share that with people worldwide in the hope that people will take their weight loss goals to the next level. The spiritual Bible study time has taken up much of my time. I failed to plan for the time. Now, I have a good idea of how I will do it. So if you bare with me, I can be caught up in the next couple of months, maybe sooner. Thank you for your patience and support as well.
We’ll start with the week going to October 10, beginning on the 4th. In the last blog, I mentioned that I couldn’t get under the 299 threshold. But, it doesn’t stop there. I keep pushing, keep digging deep to continue to lose weight. As usual, I exercised for the week. It’s a mixture of the bicycle and the elliptical machine. So far, I have lost 12lbs and am currently at 301lbs. I’m relieved because I am finally putting the hard work in. You choose your hard. My complex is studying what I am doing wrong and working hard physically to lose weight. I ate a big breakfast all week long. Hot cereal, Oatmeal, and sausage. Chill down for my stomach growling, I ate cottage cheese and grapes. At the beginning of the week, I eat heavily, and towards the end, I eat lightly. Here are my exercise results.
October 4: 1,651 calories burned and 83 minutes of exercise.
October 5: 1,656 calories burned and 92 minutes of exercise.
October 6: 1,592 calories burned and 81 minutes of exercise.
October 7: 1,400 calories burned and 62 minutes of exercise.
October 8: 1,279 calories burned and 49 minutes of exercise.
October 9: 879 calories burned and 31 minutes of exercise.
October 10: 1,039 calories burned and 30 minutes of exercise.
It is weigh-in day. What makes me anxious about weigh-in is working so hard to not see the results. I weigh myself and see 299. Awesome! I’m excited! I lost 2lbs. Let’s get after it. Now the more significant challenge is getting under the 299 threshold. The last time I weighed 299 was in the week of July 18. I wasn’t trying to lose weight then. I just happened to lose the weight because I was active that week. Keep pushing, keep digging deep. Get the results you want! Find out what happens in the next blog to see how I do. Be productive y’all. Be safe!
**In the last blog, a correction needed to be made by saying I was at 299. That is incorrect. I was at 301.
It is awkward for me to talk about this, but I will say something about it because it can happen to the best of us. At the time, two women got my attention. They work out, take good care of themselves, and are not afraid to show it. Trying to keep my eyes focused didn’t happen the way I wanted. It was unmotivating to continue, but at the same time, it was motivating because the work you put in is the result you get. I hear that you are what you eat; you are what you are studying. If you are working out, your results will show. If you work at what you are learning in life, you will get your desired results. If you eat healthily and maintain a diet, your body will show your results.
My distraction allowed me to temporarily say, “I don’t want to come back anymore.” It honestly did. So instead of not coming back, I decided to change my time of arrival so I won’t have to be distracted. You have to remove distractions to achieve. That’s what I had to do. It worked for the most part. When studying, you have to remove distractions; tv, music, being interrupted, phone. It is no different than anything else you are working on to remove distractions. Because these two ladies distracted me, I had to change my time of coming in. I started working out at home on Sundays because the distraction would drive me not to work out. It was an excellent distraction to continue to work out, but my staring did not help it. So I had to make a change. If you have to make it change, there is nothing wrong with it. Go for it.
Let’s continue on to the week of Monday, September 6, 2021. As a recap, I’m tired of seeing 300+, and I am upset that the workouts are not working out quickly. However, I have to be reminded to be patient and still keep working. I have no workout plan, no weight goals, nothing. I just started working out. It’s a good motivation, but I need to be sure that I am writing this stuff down to follow through and be more successful. You will see my goals here soon. So, here are my workout results for this week. For this week, I burned, on average, 1,192 calories; I worked out for an average of 48 minutes. I didn’t record anything I ate, but I know what I ate only because I eat the same thing. This week, I ate my routine every day. Breakfast: sausage, eggs, hot cereal. Lunch: some days, cottage cheese and grapes or nothing at all. Dinner: Pasta, salad, chicken. It’s a short list, but it varied what type of pasta I ate throughout the week. And I wonder why weight loss is a problem! That’s gonna change, though.
Exercise Result by day:
Monday: 1,305 calories burned, 57 minutes of exercise
Tuesday: 1,375 calories burned, 57 minutes of exercise
Wednesday: 1,132 calories burned, 45 minutes of exercise
Thursday: 1,087 calories burned, 43 minutes of exercise
Friday: 1,130 calories burned, 57 minutes of exercise
Saturday: 1,006 calories burned, 46 minutes of exercise
Sunday: 1,312 calories burned, 36 minutes of exercise
Yesterday, I weighed myself and gained 2lbs. I’m up +2, at 305lbs.
The week of September 13 – September 19: I did not record anything for this week. However, I did record exercises and times. Food is typical for me to remember because I don’t change my eating habits. Well, not yet. I’ll start off with food this week. Breakfast: sausage, eggs, hot cereal, this time oatmeal. Lunch: either cottage cheese and grapes or nothing. Dinner: Meat, a little bit of pasta, and salad. It was more meat this time. Chicken, Turkey burgers, baked chicken, etc. Keep in mind that I’m not really changing my eating habits. I’m going to work out without a plan. Let’s look at the stats for the week. I burned an average of 1,521 calories this week and exercised an average of 72 minutes. Nothing changed from the standpoint of a machine; I’m still doing the treadmill and the stationary bike.
Results by the day
Monday: 1,157 calories burned, 56 minutes of exercise
Tuesday: 1,380 calories burned, 51 minutes of exercise
Wednesday: 1,222 calories burned, 51 minutes of exercise
Thursday: 1,678 calories burned, 85 minutes of exercise
Friday: 1,748 calories burned, 86 minutes of exercise
Saturday: 1,774 calories burned, 93 minutes of exercise
Sunday: 1,685 calories burned, 88 minutes of exercise
Yesterday, I weighed myself and dropped 2lbs. I am currently at 303lbs. Yeah, big deal. My problem is I can’t get under 300lbs. So I’m not surprised by this but am motivated to make some plans to start trending down.
The week of September 20: The week started out that I wanted to make plans after learning that I had lost weight. But I didn’t do it until Wednesday. So I talked with my Mom (a former exercise fitness trainer), and we made some suggestions for a better diet, and I went ahead and made plans for my weight goals on Wednesday. Let me tell you about my Mom real quick. She is called drill Sargent by me. And the reason why I call her that is as kids; she used to wake all 3 of us up in the morning at 5:00am and go jogging around the apartment complex, which is the size of a football field. If I remember correctly, we only ran around the complex once to start, and as we got used to it, we did it twice. Did you figure out how I got my habit of waking up so early? Anyways, that’s when the real change started for me! But getting through this week will be a challenge. Even though I planned out my week with weight loss goals, I wasn’t confident in losing weight. I pushed on anyway. Here are my results of exercising and calories burned this week. On average, I burned 1,507 calories and exercised for 68 minutes.
Results by the Day
Monday: 1,660 calories burned, 100 minutes of exercise
Tuesday: 1,677 calories burned, 92 minutes of exercise
Wednesday: 1,585 calories burned, 89 minutes of exercise
Thursday: 1,371 calories burned, 56 minutes of exercise
Friday: 1,355 calories burned, 46 minutes of exercise
Saturday: 1,391 calories burned, 55 minutes of exercise
Sunday: 1,125 calories burned, 38 minutes of exercise
I weighed myself on Sunday; I dropped another 2lbs. I’m down to 301lbs. Ok, this is getting better, but the results are still slow to me. Let’s see what happened for the final week of September going into October.
Week of September 27: I didn’t record a lot here either. The reason being is I didn’t have anything significant to write since I haven’t crossed the 300lbs threshold that’s been preventing me from working out. But there is hope, so instead of writing, I just continued to work out. So here are my results. On average, I burned 1,567 calories and did 74 minutes of exercise.
Results by day:
Monday: 1,579 calories burned, 78 minutes of exercise
Tuesday: 1,417 calories burned, 76 minutes of exercise
Wednesday: 1,633 calories burned, 78 minutes of exercise
Thursday: 1,594 calories burned, 78 minutes of exercise
Friday: 1,693 calories burned, 77 minutes of exercise
Saturday: 1,623 calories burned, 77 minutes of exercise
Sunday: 1,430 calories burned, 55 minutes of exercise
On Sunday, I weighed myself and finally got down under 300lbs. I weighed 299. I lost 2 more pounds. I was elated! I was amazed that even though I was confident that I would not get under 300lbs, I still stuck to it. You keep working hard to get to where you want to be. Folks, stay productive!
I am writing this today, March 22nd of the year 2022. As I sit here preparing to write this blog, I am sitting here drinking a cup of coffee and reading over the journal I’m keeping during my weight journey. The one thing I have to work on is more detail. I see why people tell me to “use your words, Darren.” Now I see why. I’m not good at this. I hit and miss a lot of things on this journal. Thank God I have a decent memory of knowing some things that happened. Still, not everything I remember, so not everything will be in detail. According to what I wrote, I noticed that it’s by week and not by day, and most of my entries are like this. But I’m glad I did this way because I can get through it faster, get caught up, and stay current. Also, I noticed that this stretches across an entire month and five days; then, I started logging by week again. I’m going to break it down, so it won’t be this long, overbearing blog post trying to catch up. But let’s see here, I have other records such as recorded exercise times and calories burned. I’ll have those to depend on as well.
The weekend, August 21st, I didn’t go to the gym that day or Sunday so I could rest. However, I did cut grass and logged in some exercise time. I burned 835 calories on Saturday. On my last blog, “About ME,” I’m weird, if you haven’t noticed. I cut my grass on two separate days. Either on Friday or Saturday, I cut the front yard; on Saturday or Sunday, I cut the backyard. I do this for two reasons: (1) I don’t like gas lawn mowers in or around the house. Even though I don’t have a shed, I wouldn’t put a gas tin or a gas mower in it. I don’t like flammable liquid, so I use an electric or battery-operated mower. (2) The battery on my lawnmower is small and takes some time to charge. So to make it easier on myself, I cut the front yard, let it charge, and then hit the backyard the next day. On Sunday, the 22nd, I logged 853 calories and only 5 minutes of exercise. I was upset because it took roughly 30 minutes to cut the backyard. I guess my heart rate didn’t qualify as exercise minutes.
I weighed myself, and I stayed within the 300-pound limit. To be exact, 303 pounds. At this point, I am tired of seeing 300+ pounds. Even though I only did five days of exercise, I felt that exercising was not helping. The frustration of losing weight had been going on for some years now. My lack of patience showed because I am still in the 300-pound range. Seven years ago, I didn’t have this problem. I went on a vegan diet where I ate no meat and dairy products. Everything I ate was plant-based. I was in the best shape of my life and felt terrific. I had so much energy. I would go out for a 6-mile run in the morning, work an 11-hour shift, go and run a 4-mile evening run, work my second job for two hours and then do it all over again. I’m planning on going back to that lifestyle. In saying all this, I realized a couple of things: (1) I’m just starting this, so I have to keep working on it. (2) I have to keep emphasizing patience. In the first week of working out, I burned an average of 1,077 calories and exercised on average 37 minutes. The only day I didn’t work out was the 24th because I caught my niece’s cold. Fun fact? As I am writing this out today, March 22, 2022, I still catch her colds, and I am recovering from one now.
As we go into a new week starting from August 29th – September 4th, not too much changed from the previous week as in different routines. I’m eating two meals, still getting up at 4am, getting water down, and always asking myself, “what am I thankful for?” Let me be honest. I did not go into exercising with a plan. I just started exercising without a plan. I realized this week that I need a plan to pursue my goals. So, my goal now is to make a plan. Goal to lose each week, the current weight at the beginning of the week, and ending of the week. But as of now, I am focused on making sure I get up and get going. The food I ate this week was some hot cereal and protein meat, sometimes eggs. For dinner, a salad and another source of protein. This week, I burned, averaging 1,092 calories, and exercised on average 40 minutes. This weekend (September 4th and 5th), I did a workout because I was on a roll, felt good, and was addicted. If there is an addiction to have, exercising is one of them. I am still on the treadmill and the cycling machine, both on the weekday and on the weekend, rotating off the treadmill one day and the cycle machine the other day. Oh, but I did a cycle and a treadmill workout on Sunday. There is a reason for that. It’s a reason I didn’t expect because I stayed focused. Find out what it is on the next blog why I did do a 10-minute workout on the bike when it is supposed to be a light workout weekend.
It’s time to roll! It’s 4:00 am. A completely different attitude! Here is a question that I will ask every day. What am I thankful for? I’m thankful for a home, my blogs, ability to study, my podcast work, ability to play with numbers on Microsoft Excel. These are the bare basics I am thankful for. This is why I wake up in the morning, the reason why I drink water to start the day and get going. This type of motivation is what got me 4,390 steps today, 32 minutes of exercise, and burned 1,018 calories. Taking the time to remember what to be thankful for helping boost my attitude. Getting up at four in the morning is not a pleasurable objective to do, especially while winter is slowly coming upon us. I took 15 minutes each on the treadmill and cycle. Breakfast, snack, and dinner is still a must; I need fuel for the rest of the day. Breakfast is hot cereal and sausage patties. To hold off until dinner, I ate cottage cheese and grapes. I spent the rest of the day working on blogs, preparing for one of my podcasts tonight, and preparing for the other podcast set to record on Friday.
Thursday, August 19, 2021
It’s 4:00 am, and now it’s time to answer the question I said I would answer every day. What am I thankful for? Let’s try something different this time. Although I complain about it because of my poor choices and lack of self-discipline, I am thankful for my health. I am thankful to the Lord for waking me up this morning, and his continued love to make sure I am safe during my most vulnerable times. I am thankful he provides for me and is always there. The more I focus on him, things fall into place. I get up after being thankful, drink my water, and I’m on my way out the door. I get to the gym a little after 5:00 am and start my routine. I stretched in the parking lot because I didn’t feel prepared. I felt stiff. To be honest, it felt like an excuse to try to back out of exercising. Also, I didn’t want to be around other people when exercising. That is fine heart, but I am going to ignore that excuse and go to work on these exercise machines. As many times as anxiety flared, I got through it, and I don’t want to be the reason for why I have a heart attack or health problem because I listened to everything you say. So, I go in and do my duties of exercising. The cycle and treadmill, which I split 15 between the two, totaling 30 minutes. I got my first award since 2016 using the fitness app on the iPhone. The award is 7-Workout Week. If you don’t have an iPhone, it is seven workouts of at least five minutes each in a week alone. To me, that is a true accomplishment for starting to exercise.
I hear the 4:00 am alarm going off. Ugh, I complained, getting out of bed to get my water chugged down for the day. Calories burn goal? Check! Exercise goal? Check! Stand goal? Check! At this point, I needed to wake up as the water didn’t kick in yet. I got ready and was out the door by 5:00 am. I’m still dragging a bit, but I got to the gym and started working out. First thing first, I got on the treadmill, then the bike. Did both of them for 20 minutes. I felt good but in a lot of back pain, mainly my lower back. It goes back to my stomach carrying my back, which is why I’m at the gym in the first place. I burned 1,174 calories and did 42 minutes of exercise. I’m determined to change this attitude of mine. I went home, showered, changed clothes, and sure enough, went into the kitchen and ate everything, including breakfast. I will say that exercise does build up an appetite, but what I’m eating won’t help me. Sure, the breakfast was okay, protein such as sausage, eggs, and hot cereal. The rest of the day, snacking as usual. Food addiction is a growing pain to stop the addiction. It is up to me to change the most challenging addiction in the world for me; food. I accept the challenge!
Tuesday, August 17, 2021
Ugh! Here we go again. The 4:00 am alarm going off. I took a minute and had to set something straight with myself. I’m battling two complex issues here. One, the lack of motivation. If I am going to achieve my goals, I have to be more optimistic about it. Ready to get up in the morning, ready to chug down water, and prepared to stretch to start out the day. Basically, I have to turn myself into a morning person. Waking up negatively will not help me. Two, the food addiction. The more I wake up in a lousy mood, unmotivated with no purpose, the more I’ll eat. Depression leads to me eating. That’s why food is an addiction, and motivation is difficult to maintain. I finally got up, stretched, drank my water, read a little bit, and felt good afterward, ready to hit the gym.
There is something about me a lot of people don’t know. I have social anxiety. I went to counseling a couple of times and then stopped because of my fear. I felt judged by my counselor, and that bothered me. So I stopped getting treatment. Going to the gym does not help the situation because it is terrifying. Group chats are difficult for me. Social gatherings such as church bother me. You name it; it probably affects me. Doing things in the morning while everybody is sleeping is essential for me. Reading and exercising is helps me cope with social anxiety a little. But enough to get me out there and get going before everybody else shows up. I got to the gym with very few people there and did the usual treadmill and bicycling. I did 15 minutes on the treadmill and 23 minutes on the cycle. I burned 1,005 calories for the day and did a total of 38 minutes of exercising. I really feel good now; working out the stress, tension, and sweat with my body really got me going. I realize that hard work is not so bad if you allow yourself to do it. I went home and ate breakfast, and showered as usual, but what changed was, I didn’t snack throughout the day. I drank water and waited until dinner to eat. Is this the beginning of the process I’ve been missing?
It’s hard enough to get motivated when you are 6’0, 309 lbs. At this time, I was 299 lbs. I gained all of it back and more. Today was one of those days I wanted to exercise, but my excuse was my back. What was my motivation to start the day? Breakfast and two cups of coffee. I realized I made more excuses for exercising than eating breakfast in the morning. I’m want to get the weight off my stomach so my back will stop hurting. There is currently no diet; I’m eating sweets and junk food and working on drinking a gallon of water a day to wash or cleanse my body, which I admit I’ve done good up to this point. Here is my excuse, drinking water is my way of losing weight without hard work.
I’m not kidding; that’s precisely what I wrote. That was my truth then. Now, I realize it is the biggest lie known to humankind. It’s the complaining, the excuses I kept making to not want to put in the work to lose the weight. It is called laziness. If I am not willing to put in the work, what is the point? When I don’t drink water, I feel like crap. I have no energy, brain frog, irritable, and a day wasted because I don’t have the energy to do anything. I feel more energized, relaxed, and productive when I drink water. Now, all of this is true, but I am still making excuses for why I shouldn’t exercise. Besides going to work, other ways of being productive are self-education. I am productive by working on my blogs, writing, podcasts, Microsoft Excel projects, and reading. So how am I going to get back on track? Start my water intake in the morning and start my exercise. Let’s see if I do that.
Sunday, August 15, 2021
It’s about a month later, not too much happened. Weight fluctuated between July and August. I never did exercise other than lift weights once a week, if not at all. There was no motivation at all. I enjoyed the food I ate, so I wasn’t complaining only when I had to walk, and my back started hurting. Well, what are you going to do, Darren? Continue to make excuses or do something about it?
I just had Sunday dinner. Macaroni and cheese, mashed potatoes, green beans, garlic cheese bread, and meatloaf. I accepted eating all this food in the past few years, especially now. But, unfortunately, I didn’t move around to help keep my weight in check. The fact is, I was heading towards a danger zone, too heavy to walk, health complications, everything. On this day, I’m 6’0, 305 lbs. So, things got to change, and I have to be the one to make those changes. So, I decided on August 16; I would go back to the gym. I don’t have a plan; all I know is I’m getting on a machine and will use it. I have no plans, all these ideas, but no plans. Ideas such as fasting, tracker, diet plans. How am I going to put all this into play? I don’t know, but I do know that I am desperate. Tomorrow will be the day of change. About a month ago, I said the same thing. Will history repeat itself?
Hi friends! On top of doing daily devotional blogs studying the Bible, I want to introduce my personal blog. I see so many discouragements on social media about body imaging and shaming. I have two goals with my personal blogs.
I want to share my weight loss journey in detail. The discouragement, choices, and giving up to change it all around. Sharing your weight loss journey can be done without body shaming and by talking about the real issue; the encouragement to do it.
I want to share my goals to let everyone know you can do whatever you put your mind to. Instead of watching others down you, it’s time to get up and go for your goals.
I’ll talk about my struggles, strengths, and how I set those goals and still be encouraged without seeing pictures like you see on social media. I will start from the beginning of my weight loss journey and work my way to the most current day. Enjoy!